For 12 Blog Posts of The Year, I Write This...

            I sadly feel a bit shocked when the time flies so fast and brings me down to the end of 2011. What I’ve done to fulfil it is really ordinary. My big willingness that I put in my mind in the early year is decreasing constantly as long as days go..It includes a dream to write anything in my blog, that also has to be forgot when I realized there’s only 11 post is saved in my blog archieve..Then I wanna make it complete to be 12 post so that it can be counted as 1 post per a month in average. That’s clearly very tricky, eh? ^^

College, University and I...

I find a totally different type of learning system between my past college and the present one, in university. The last gets me a bit tired of trying to make myself being compatible with. It may be literally classified as disorientation syndrom. Sounds illogical but that’s what I feel..

            Often, I compare on how different their lecturers when explaining the lesson in classes. I respect them both. But to be honest, I’m really missing my great lecturers in my 3 years college in AKA Bogor. I lately realize that they are very capable and professional when teaching in a class. They’re  experts of their own field and have a brilliant academic background. They are killer and humble at the same time, ..After I officially graduated from AKA Bogor, I just knew that’s so much I have had from it. Knowledge, skill, sense of chemist, and passion to be the best.

22 Years of Life

22 years of my life

And I’m still trying to find out that big hill of hope

for a destination..

sometimes it feels so high

it sounds so far

it seems so difficult to hold

but I can’t stop dreaming..

No matter, I let them got me laughing

Also, I allow them got me yelling

I just wanna run,

without caring..

So I wake up in the morning

And step out into my imaginary garden

Showing the most beautiful colors of flowers

Easily I see,,

The red is Europe

The white is for backpacking and exploring the world

The yellow is for meeting new people and tasting culture out there

The brown is for living in the bigger place

The blue is for flying  and touching my old Oxbridge

The purple is Edensor

And the green, my favorite one, is for being an expert of chemist; it may be a spectroscopyst, a biochemist, or whatever it will be named

Sounds so selfish, eh?

Hope the above are not for my just own self

Never mind sharing their greatness for everybody around me..

22 years of my life

And I’m still trying to reach out that big hills of hope

for many destinations..

Wake Me Up When December Ends..

am I waiting for something new?
wondering,
worrying,
got tired of waiting,

a friend asked:
"You're tired of wondering about what though? or just worrying over work and school?"

I don't know what to say exactly..

again:
"i hope you aren't actually depressed, maybe just sad or something. i know i can feel like that sometimes as well. what was it that upset you though, if you don't mind sharing? i hope i didn't say something you were upset by..."

 still,
I don't know
I don't even imagine what it is
hope I can fix it all,,
not so sure
but just working on it..

                                                             (Mr. Google)

ps: random night in december..